The Heart-Break. (for you dear ladies who came to me)
The pain. The pain, how am I to endure this pain I’m feeling. It has taken over my mind and body. I can’t breathe without this pain enclosing on me. Oh, the heartache. How unbearable this pain is. And all I wanted to do was love. To give all of my love, yet, it wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t good enough. Now I am left with my heart broken into pieces. Such despair I feel. I don’t know what to do, it hurts so badly. What did I do wrong, that my love wasn’t good enough. I laid my heart out only to have it broken in return.
When I offer my heart in an expression of love to another and I have not learned to give without expectation of return, then I have made myself vulnerable to the pain of a broken heart. A broken heart, which delivers a piercing pain straight through my heart, turning my insides into knots, tightening myself inside out as I cry in despair. I have offered my heart in what I felt was an act of pure love but failed to understand that for such an act to be pure it must be done with pure intention. Love with no expectation of love in return. If we love with conditions, and most of us do have expectation of love to be returned to us, we become a victim of unrequited love and suffer so much as a result.
The broken heart is subject to the rules of this mundane world. If you respond to heart break with a spiritual outlook you diminish the intensity of the pain. You search for those things in life that you think will make the pain go away or at least lessen, but it doesn’t get any better, in fact, it sometimes feels worse. We do all that we think we should and still our heart aches. We cry we despair. Then we consider changes which may have consequences, or do we turn away and hide what is left of our heart in protest against further pain.
As we come closer to the realization that we may find some peace in spirit we understand that we need to make changes within ourselves. We can replace the love we felt we lost but to do so without learning from our experience subjects us to further heart break and loss. Pain from heart break does not need to happen. Don’t subject yourself to guilt. Guilt for what? For wanting to love and be loved. No, there is no guilt in this. Just a lack of understanding of how to love. To love with no expectation of return. If this does not succeed then there is no one to blame. There is no one to blame, least of all you.
Never Surrender yourself.
For change to have a lasting effect it must come from a heart that is sensitive to the need for change.
The insensitive heart cannot temper the analytical mind as it needs to. There must be feeling regardless of the pain. To shut down the feeling receptors in order to avoid pain would lend to a stunted spiritual growth creating inhibitions and a measure of shortsightedness.
You don't surrender yourself; you accept transformation in a creative way and in harmony. You allow the elevation of the soul as the transmigration occurs from accelerated vibrations by moving forward with the change. You don't surrender, you accept more of yourself than you ever have.
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